however, i can understand why certain people let go easily

1) the things that they regarded as "important" was actually not important at all

2) they are just too tired to hold on

there are of course reasons why some people find it hard to let go,

1) the thing is really very important
2) they chose to be loyal

3) they don't give up easily

sometimes, people deceive themselves from the hurtful truth, they tried to ignore problems
but little did they know, the more they try to ignore, the problem will get worst

people like to be in comfort, but they do not like to be comfortable for long.

that's when people start to move on, doing things that they do not want initially,

because we are all designed to INCREASE

drained out

not physically, not mentally

but i guess emotionally

as i closed my eyes

images appear

i could hardly get to sleep

radio was just by my ears

but music did not get through my thoughts

opening and closing

but things did not change

trying hard to perform a miracle

but this miracle won't work and will never work

now i understand why orange fellow is here

at least, she knows when to hug me

at least, she knows when to lend me a shoulder

it can never happen to real life

btw, orange fellow is

how i wished, as the days goes

everything is solved

is so hard to persuade myself that everything doesnt matter

my everything, is ______

there's no more memories of us

it happen in just one day

when mind went blank

but just your image rising from the back of my mind

images of what you have done

so what if there's a shoutout in my heart

who will be able to hear or listen

only Him i guess

for He know everything about me, my thoughts

for i'm a child of Him

only people who are willing to spend more time with me

will understand my deep thoughts, my actions

for those who are just passing by

will understand nothing.....